Whatevs.

Writing for me is a mess. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t.

Interestingly enough, I write in my head all day long. I think of points, sermons, funny anecdotes, books, thoughts that run amuck all day long…whether I want them to or not. 

But getting me to put it down on this blog… well, that’s the challenge.

I want to write it down. I know you are waiting with baited breath for me to write it down. But alas, the thoughts stay jumbled in my head.

I fear what you think. I fear what you would say. Mainly, I fear what goes on in my head.  Crazy. Silly. Not smart enough. Not like so and so. Not good enough.

So instead of writing here, I chuck it to the wind. I say whatevs.

But I want to write. I read books on how to write. I think in my head all day long the things I want to say here. I make mental notes what to blog on; as well as, keep a long tallied list of the things that are in me that I want to say.

But then, I don’t.

Whatevs.